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Friday, 30 October 2009

  •  It happened...the Annual Halloween Kids Parade at the office.  I think this may have been the cutest year yet.  My mouth still hurst from laughing and smiling.

    I look forward to this day all year and tend to freak out a bit about the high level of cuteness I experience...like last year and the year before that.

    This year the uterus didn't actual twist and flip around since its full of real live baby.  All I could do is rub my belly and think about how my baby will surely win the parade next year.  Now, there aren't any actual "winners" for cutest kid of all time.  But we all know that my kid will be the winner in everyone's mind. 

    The standout baby costumes on the cuteness scale this year were the monkeys and lions.  There was even a passed out sleeping monkey that looked like a drunk monkey which was awesome.

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    And the ladybugs and bumblebees

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    So I've got to come up with something that will blow the mind of cuteness....

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    I know having a baby is about more then dressing them up in cute costumes.  But come on, next years Halloween is going to be awesome.  Look out CUTE, me and my baby are coming for ya!

     

     

     

     

     

Wednesday, 02 September 2009

  • when two people love each other.....

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    Thats out little gummi bear baby a couple weeks ago.  Its head is on the left facing down and it has little nubby hands and feet.  Cutest gummi baby ever, right?  I don't have the words to express the joy and overwhelmingly deep gratitude I feel for the privilege to carry this child.  And that is enough, that is more than enough...to be excited and eagerly anticipate this baby's entrance into the world.

    but also,

    when two people love each other and get really close, and things don't work, and they take their temperature everyday and make charts, and go to dr.s, and get poked, and go to more dr.s and leave samples in cups, and get scary news, and go to more dr.s, and switch dr.s, and do expensive uncomfortable procedures, and take fertility drugs, and hope, and pray, and hope, and pray.........then they make a baby.

    We tried for 15 months to make this baby.  Thats doesn't sound like long now, but it felt like an eternity.  And we were the lucky ones.  I have friends who are going on years now.  I hear stories of people going through much more invasive and expensive procedures all to have it not work.  And the hope is the worst part, because the devastation is that much greater month after month after month.  Its isolating.  And you keep seeing other people get pregnant, and hearing about the "surprise accidents,"  everyone announcing their big news.  And you ask, "why not me?" 

    I want to write this and be aware of this as we have just announced our big news.  This baby deserves all the excitement and love surrounding it.  And it warms my heart to see all the comments and receive all the congratulations and hugs and see the huge smiles.  But I also know the other side.  And know how it feels to see that excitement for someone else and just feel a deep sting. 

    This last year when i would write blog posts about my journey and about dreams, this was the journey i was actually talking about.  The journey to make this baby. 

    We were lucky cause we got a diagnosis that could be treated.  A lot of couples don't get a diagnosis and just keep jumping through physical and emotional hoops for years....waiting and hoping.  It took us 8 months of testing to get that diagnosis. And you can't say that "it'll happen."  Because that couple going through infertility is also dealing with a reality that it might not.  Even to hear "keep praying" falls flat, because they've been praying.  They've been doing everything, doing everything right.  I felt like I walked around with a big red letter "I" stamped on my forehead and my medical records.

    A few months ago we were sitting in church and the song we were singing was about God being mighty or a fortress or something....there were images showing behind the words on the screen of nature...mountains and clouds and oceans.  And then there it was, an image of a fetus, and I started crying.  If God is so mighty, if he can create all of this, why won't He do it for me.  Thats all I could think.  And I prayed to let me trust Him.  i knew that He could, but why wouldn't He.  He can create an entire ocean and sustain it and I just wanted him to create something so small inside of me.  Did He even care?  I was up and down all the time, asking so many questions and trying to have faith.

    Its easy now looking back.  It almost doesn't even matter anymore now that this baby is living and real. Our journey has gotten so much brighter.

    I had a dream when we were in the middle of trying.  Ryan and I had been on a trip and walked in the door of our parents house.  The house was a weird mix of our two parents entry ways.  I walk in and I say "where's my joy?"  And this little blond boy comes running around the corner and says "here I am!"  I kneel down on the ground and throw my arms open and he runs into them.  The little boy looked like Ryan's baby pictures.  I clung to that dream.  I feel like God gave me that dream to let me know that it would happen and this child would be my greatest joy. 

    I believe thats real and true.

    And really, is this not just going to be the greatest kid ever...........mix these two up and you get the kid of awesome!!

    ryan sarah

            

     

Monday, 20 July 2009

  • On July 5th the husband and I competed on relay teams in our first International Distance Triathalon.  We split boys and girls and went for it.

    1500 meter(about 1 mile) swim, 24 mile bike, 10k(6.1 miles) run

    Brandon and Rozie were the swimmers.  They started off the race about 7:45 in the morning in the lake in Las Colinas..  It had been 100 degree days leading up to the race and I was worried we were all going to die from heat stroke.  But that morning the rain and clouds rolled in and saved us.

    Husband and Debbie were bikers.  And let me tell you how Deb saved the girls team.  Our biker had to drop out.  And Debbie who we later found out hadn't been on a bike since she was a kid....jumped in, learned to ride, and trained for 24 miles in just a couple weeks...amazing!

    Mike O. and I were the runners.  By the time he and I got around to running the clouds had drifted away and left a nice July sauna for us to run in.

    In the end the boys beat us...whatever, its all about having fun, right, right?

    Here are the stats:
    boy's time overall: 2:41:57

    girl's time overall: 3:13:25

    Now how about some flattering race pics.  Unfortunately since the DeLoaches spent their time in the water they weren't photographed.  But take it from me, they look pretty darn cute lavender swim caps.

    Ryan on the bike...what do you think happened to him between the 1st and 2nd photo?  its like he is angry at the road....

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    and Deb, our hero, sacrificing herself for Team Derosa........get it, DEROSA,  DE(deb)RO(rozie)SA(sarah)...SUPER CREATIVE I know

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    But lets talk about what really matters to me...the run.  Here is exhibit A that Mike and I were actually running different races:

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    We're crossing the finish....excuse me, did I miss the party?  I do not look happy or all smiles or have my arms relaxed.  Mike looks like he just got done running down the street to hug a puppy.  I look like I'm about to kick a puppy.

    Lets examine further:

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    it looks like happy fun time running 6 miles in the middle of a Texas summer. 

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    not so fun...more like, lets get this over with. Even his headband is cuter than mine!

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    this is the only pic that makes me feel better.  At least he looks like he's actually working...a little bit.

    Mike O. beat me by 1minute 6seconds.

    Maybe I should try and have more fun?  Or maybe I should just work harder to beat Michael... 

     

     

     

Monday, 22 June 2009

  • The husband's cousins stayed the night with us last night so we could take them to VBS.  We've got a fun filled day of pool time planned today.  After VBS last night we all came home and watched a movie

    The husband bought us ice cream

    10:00pm: ice cream

    11:00pm :cousin is hungry and asks for more food.
        me: can we give him food this late?
        husband: sure he is hungry
        me: he wants chef boy-r-dee
        husband: he'll be fine

    11:10pm cousin eats ravioli

    12:00pm we all go to bed

    3:00am i'm woken up by a quiet voice
        cousin: my stomach hurts I don't feel good
        I get up
       
    3:15am cousin pukes.....ALOT


    so don't give kids ravioli after ice cream late at night

    Lesson Learned


    he ate 3 donuts this morning, so I'm guessing hes gonna live









Thursday, 18 June 2009

  • I've kind of had a bad attitude this week....an by kind of, i mean actually.

    I could blame being in a funk because the husband has been gone, and it does kind of throw me off.  But, really I just haven't been seeing the big picture.  I've been too busy worrying about my own scene.

    And after working all day and then coming directly to church to paint cardboard murals all night I've had a bad attitude about VBS.  I've seen my negativity spread by my little grumblings. 

    Then I just now saw an update on the blog from the husband's mission trip.  Check it out.

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    Thats the husband with some other members of the team doing a skit.  And I read about the work they've been doing.  It just puts all the cardboard painting and crazy VBS planning into perspective.  I may have my opinions about this project being to big or that one being to small or how we could do it all different.  But really....really....it doesn't matter.  None of the sets and cardboard painting matter one bit.  We're doing it for the children.  This week I've joked with a sarcastic tone as I drag myself into the church building that "I'm doing it for the children."

    But if me taking some extra time to paint a mountain or repaint a mountain 10 times gets a kid to come because it looks cool inside the church...then thats all that matters.  So ya, we're doing it for the children.  We work in community for those kids.  Its the best way I can spend my time.  I can just let my own scene go...quit worrying so much about my own time.   

    And I love this pic from the husbands trip....the kids with the parachute.  Kids love that parachute all over the world.  Children are children.  They need to laugh and be loved on.  I'm glad the husband is away doing just that.

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